The narrative revolves around a phenomenon whereby the answer is literally in front of my eyes. I have been reflecting on a topic since yesterday, a process that has spanned four days. One topic emerged, and while I was engaged in its resolution, the second topic materialized in front of me. This second topic was Dostoevsky's book, Dulcet and Punishment, which I had decided to reread before attending a production by Japanese director Motoi Miura.

The book turned out to be my high school book, with my bookmarks, notes, and photographs of my family from the 1950s and 1960s. The book immersed me in the past, my school years, and even prompted me to retrieve the group photographs and review them, which I had not done in a very long time.

We often seek answers in distant locations, yet they are often right in front of us. The book contains a wealth of information about the author's past history, family, and experiences. It is a school book that belonged to the author's grandmother and mother. It contains notes written in the handwriting of the author's mother, who was already caring for her grandmother at the time. It also contains bookmarks and notes made by the author's hand and possibly by her mother's hand. The notes are carefully underlined with a simple pencil, indicating the importance of key points in the dialogues. The entire book is marked with paper bookmarks, which have deteriorated over time and require careful handling when turning the pages.

The book evokes a multitude of memories, emotions, and recollections of specific events. It serves as a gateway to the past and a bridge to the present. It is as if they serve to safeguard, defend, and enhance its value.